- Ninth month: 06/09/10 to 07/09/10: anticipating, nesting and so much more...
I can't believe it... 9th month!!! :-)
Anxiety has now been taken over by excitement...well, maybe not yet... Yes, I am a little anxious about the day I'll meet Mia and hold her in my arms but the thing that has been making me the most anxious is WHEN..WHEN will she be here? Will I go past my due date again? This has been an issue I constantly bring up at my prenatal visits. From the very beginning I asked my doctor to NOT let me go past my due date but I am torn between that and being induced. She tells me she really believes I won't go past my due date this time. I really want to experience the feeling of going into labor without being induced but I don't know right now if it's worth waiting for the natural to happen. I was anxious when my due date arrived while pregnant with Lila...and each day that passed I was getting more and more anxious but it was ok since I had not other children to care for. This time it's a totally different situation. I have been struggling to give these "worries" to the Lord. I know He knows what's best and Mia's arrival is all planned out by Him and it couldn't be more perfectly planned.
I'm so blessed that my mom is near and will be taking a few days off to take care of Lila when I go to the hospital and to help me once I come home. God bless her for doing that. I'm also very blessed my mother-in-law is here and will also be helping me once Mia arrives. :-)
Nesting: I call it an obsession now. I don't think I can go one day without cleaning or organizing something in the house. There's still so much to do in Mia's room but at this point I decided it can wait until after she arrives. I managed to get the most important things done (bassinet, glider, dresser, laundry) so the decor will come later. If you know me, you will know this is not normal behavior for Joyce...LOL... I guess I have started to learn how to pick my battles as I'm sure I'll be doing lots of that in the years to come. I hear having 2 girls is not easy and I sort of know that since I have an older sister and a younger brother. Our house was anything but calm.
Lila has yet to understand what's going to happen. I anticipate she'll give me a hard time because it's really just me and her all day...I'm sure she'll be a very loving big sister but she'll struggle to have my attention divided between her and her little sister. I'm already praying hard about this because it'll be the 3 of us alone all day for a few weeks. Since I know I won't be getting much sleep, my patience will be short and God knows how I'll handle it. Also trying to give this up to the Lord completely but during my sleepless nights (yes, I'm still experiencing insomnia) that's one of the things I find myself constantly thinking about. She officially calls my belly bump "Mia" now but sometimes she calls her daddy's "belly bump" that too...LOL
Well, I hope to be back next time with news of Mia's birth! Hang in there with me... :-)
